The presentation of depression depressed me

After I finished the first part of the research, writing the papers, I was thinking about the oral part. It is difficult to describe the feeling that I had before I began the presentation. But I can tell you that I went outside to smoke then I came back going to washroom but I changed my mind and coming back to the class by the longest way. I was walking slowly close to the wall and prying, asking the God for help. I got in the classroom, nobody was there and told myself that would be better. I wanted to talk with myself and doing the presentation alone in the class. I wanted to organize the classroom’s desks because I saw each desk was away from the closest one to it 0, 5 meter. No I do not want to do that, I want to look over in my power point and I want to practice. No, no time for that I should do something else. And between these and this I did not do more than thinking what to do until everybody got back to the class. I was shucked everybody was waiting for me to begin and I was thinking when can I finish. I felt my heart went down to my legs and I did not know in which leg the right one or the lift. I started and I finished the presentation and the feeling was getting better as soon as I was getting along with my speaking.

The thing that I liked during my presentation was the classmates’ eyes, they were looking at me carefully until I felt that they wanted to talk and I wanted to listen. After the presentation, I felt free but not yet, I was also thinking if I have the same situation tomorrow in the university. Thank you Marley and my classmates for your paying attention to me while I was presenting it was a good power for me.